Okay...grad school...the aftermath of teaching and studying at the same time, for me looks like this...I don't know if anyone really realizes why they rarely hear from me during the semester...but I'm busy making this type of mess! Also, it does look worse because I have picked up a little since I completed my papers and my grading. You also don't see any toys mixed in because the kids pick up their toys at night. I guess I'm not making a lot of excuses for lack of communication---just one big one. The amazing thing is that this is fairly organized, in piles of all of the different papers I'm working on, in the different areas that I'm studying. I just realized that maybe everyone doesn't realize the reason why I'm sometimes in a bad mood, and sometimes not so good at being communicative...However, I never realized that it would be this hard to balance school, TA position, mother and wife, and side jobs whenever possible...but I think that it might be making me more resilient?? I've decided I care to much about what my students don't seem to care so much about...? Anyone else ever feel this way? Maybe it's just end of semester apathy or I'm just too involved in the things I shouldn't be...and don't care enough about the things I should??? Self-reflection is hard...?for lack of a better word. I seem to think that life will get easier, but I'm slowly realizing that it just keeps going on with different issues to deal with, celebrate, love, and learn from. Life...it happens...
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